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I do not know why, lately always always remember a woman from primary to high school students - MJ, we have not seen for decades, as if she has been avoiding me like. However, she left in my memory is still askew innocence, glitter bright eyes, calm down and when the eye with a trace of the total depression; her head is not high, very shapely, youthful white faces of adolescent girls through the overflow Bingjie. She is a snake, a year older than me, she always told me to call her sister, and I refused, she Waizhaonaodai said, anyway, I than you, always be your sister. Although I am not reluctant, but had to admit that this is a fact, I said, never what? We live in two villages, her six sisters, the youngest one is the younger brother, she is the boss. Father is our commune party secretary, the natural family is good. I remember the third grade, she read the fourth grade. Also that year, the Cultural Revolution began vigorous, written posters, participate in the Red Guards. In order to make revolution, the school stopped the class, though closed, still have to rise in level. I rose to the fourth grade, MJ Nature is in fifth grade. Then resume revolution began. Until she filled the sixth grade on the graduate school was not allowed to graduate studies, then opened the seventh grade classes. In 1969, we both graduated the primary school stage, there is no entrance examination to be together on the junior high school. At that time, school education and gradually began to have some better. Opened a language and mathematics. We're in a junior high school class. I am slightly built, sat in the front row.MJ sat second row, and behind me. Whisper very convenient. Fewer subjects, learning is relatively concentrated. Our results are very good. Junior high school for one year. Zhang, a generation of math teacher said, you acquired this result and the high school can. After listening to his words, and MJ look at our relative, no one to speak.My family was preparing the evening dinner, she and T suddenly came to my house. I and T is the same village, she was married, had children.louis vuitton monogram sarah sepia 
But he and I, MJ, or classmates. He than us old, to understand things more than we, more than MJ on weekdays and I ask him. So then do not say we are not friends. At first I did not understand their purpose in coming. MJ seek to sit down and I said: "Let's go to high school?" T went on to say: "I asked Zhang, our results on the three high school no problem." Discuss this for a while, the three of us decided to read the high school.The school has seven miles and more away from home. T has a special old bike, a man riding also Minato almost. MJ has a new one, I did not, just take MJ's car. After our village is a dirt road. MJ every morning are waiting for me in the side of the road.We rode together to school.Between the three of us the best school. Go to school at night with back to school. We midterm test out good results. Early summer 1971, I entered the city, in a professional art to work. Parting, we really are reluctant to leave. That year I was 15 years old.MJ and T insisted on the finished high school, ready to go on to university (the University was to be walked on) Who knows, MJ's father was removed from Weishan Lake decentralization put a duck labor. So they are recommended for admission to college, there is no hope. MJ became a private teacher, T at home when the farmers.Every time I go home to MJ T took me home to see her to be, in her home for dinner.So that we continue to travel, the friendship continued to consolidate. In 1974, I talked about in the unit secretly in love.That year I went back home. T know that I came back, went straight to my house. He frankly said to me: "Do you consider how personal problems?" I said: "Upon my honor, I talk about TV drama in the unit." He acted very surprised at the way, I asked him how he was? He paused for a long time to talk. He said: "If talk about things harder to resolve." I ask what is harder? Then he spread out a license: "MJ asked me to make referrals, how to you get married?" To tell the truth. MJ, where we regarded as high in the door, not just one beautiful, the most important conditions of her family is superior than the civilian population, and their homes are generally people want to claim kinship does not want to do. Similarly, me too. And MJ get married I never had the idea. Then T has conveyed the idea of ​​MJ, marriage house, furniture, etc. all do my hands, she is responsible for manage, will my people. Of course happy family, where to find such a good thing to go. At first I have heard very happy. Students for many years because we have each other is mutual understanding. So who advised me home, put the match back to settle down the best this tour. I turned my thought about how I was talking to her on account of it? Furthermore, MJ no matter how good, can still rural household ah. If, and this one, an account of the future and the future of the child account, the employment is in the city Yeah. That our family to my question as a real meeting of like a night, there is no results. Finally, I said, "T, you wait for me a letter now." Nevertheless, I T was still home to dinner with us MJ, MJ is very warm, busy busy outside to entertain us. But we have not mentioned the matter.After I returned to the city, for that matter the screenwriters. What I know is. MJ to marry it with me and her parents had discussed before, that I were good, usually, although not many words, smart, pleasant, eye-right; not strange temper. Besides, our family and her previous generations to get along with are friendly, especially after me and her classmates, with her father is a party official, has asked about him a lot.Helped a lot of our family and we can not solve my problem. The whole family are very grateful. Furthermore there is the relationship between our two so closely, due to face, how to refuse this marriage is not good. I felt very clear that they were waiting for my reply. Indeed, to this decision we all. So I picked up the pen did not write down a few times. I toss and turn, it is difficult to decide, so that contradictions do not know how many sleepless nights spent. Letter letter ah, how do I write. I do not have the assertive.Than a month later. I finally made up my mind, I decided to get married start a family in the city. So I did not sleep one night, five sheets of paper to T wrote a long letter, the language as much as possible not to hurt feelings. The next day I went into the sleepy post office. When dropped into the mailbox I want to believe the moment. Momentum in sour heart, indescribable taste. Cast into the letter, everything is so decided.MJ T showed the letter to be read. T said to me later, when MJ did not blame you, but blame himself for having to mention this also blame myself one step too late. Looking back now, if MJ really made a step back, maybe the situation is not so today. With her virtuous and industrious, life will be sweet and permanent.I expected big things out, see my letter in the MJ one month after, she married lightning. The man in front of our village, a village belonging to the County. Her father is the brigade secretary. Family is very favorable conditions. Both the marriage in the local as a good match for the. She got married when I had not been able to congratulate the reason self-evident. She did not notice me, and perhaps never want to see me again. From then on, we could not have been met. Well what happened was more that I never dared to see her. Although T our common, but T is not told me about her. Which in the end I figure out why.In subsequent years, no one told me about MJ. However, in my heart was always thinking about her, and would like to know some facts about her, but hard to tell to others. After all, once, the students Liangxiaowucai ah. So I have been brooding in the. Once I go home, just sit down, my mother looked at me and then a long sigh and said: "MJ, if at our house will not happen again ... ..." MJ, over the years, the first time was when I mention her face, but also my mother. MJ I am a big issue in life. I hastily asked his mother, because it is Niangliang, the mother did not keep me in anything.MJ just felt depressed in-laws and the mother of life because I did not agree to this pro-door and regret.louis vuitton monogram canvas montorgueil pm At first, MJ wedding day was still quite comfortable, and the following year gave birth to a girl, her in-laws did not show a happy and unhappy. When she once again to have a second girl, her in-laws and her husband showed clearly unhappy. She remained with her daughter and the private teachers. Teaching, busy household with children.Family from time to time to see her face, long days, the mother does not cook, and a family waiting for her to come home from school do. MJ knew, could have nothing to do, if in the past, the father or the party secretary, the Xiapo Dan-laws did not dare do this to her. Person is a life. She just head down to live. God seems like a post against her. To be their third child or a girl. So open and swore her husband. One day at noon she was home from school, entered the house to see her husband ashen face sitting there smoking a cigarette, she dared not answer, hurried into the room to breastfeed her child. When she went in, was a sight that shocked. Less than two months old daughter's mouth was stuffed into a handkerchief. She understood everything I see.She plucked a handkerchief from the child mouth, picked up her husband rushed to kneel in front of thump: "Her father, how do you anything for me, the child is not wrong Yeah, I pray you, let child that ... ..." pregnant The children in the wah-wah crying, holding the child implored her tight, spread down there.After listening to his mother finished, I'm sad, and could not help but shed a tear for her. Mother or that, if come to our house, how could be so ah! Well, who is anti-life, but ah!Since then, my body like forever carry a pair of heavy cross. Always be asking yourself, jingliang ah, you are not very selfish. MJ never ever without any news.Whenever I drive pass the village where she lived, always want a pair in that piece of the brick and green tile captured by her presence.Since reform and opening to the village were different, every family built a small building, the village has become well known for the villas. I always think about whether she lived in the small building it?The total sense of heavy hearts, the other a taste of Oh!Later, MJ's father rehabilitated, to the county when the Secretary. All her sisters and brother went into the city, left her a CD in the country.